her own world

not sure about being back

Mon, 08 May 2006 17:19:12 GMT

so, i've been tempted to come back to livejournal for a really fucking long time. and until now i've resisted that temptation. and if i do i think i need to change a lot of thigns.maybe make an enirely new livejournal, because this one is old...and the farther back i read, the more i wonder who the hell i am. but at the same time, i loved this livejournal. as long as i don't get too into it i wouldn't mind writing again, maybe. well today is May 8th. ive stayed home from school to study for my ap..and im slowly realizing that this test is going to be the most intense test ive ever taken, which scares me a lot. and i feel like im going to get a 1 on the exam. clearly: the studying isn't going well.
so heres to maybe writing again..
maybe

home

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 23:42:13 GMT

so im here. in my room, at my computer...its hard to go from green to silver so quickly if that makes sense. i dont really want to be writing this but i guess i wanted to let you all know i was home. so im home. moes home with me and yea.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 11:39:08 GMT

i guess this is the last entry for a while, ill miss you all a lot. i think part of me wants to write this whole long entry about this year because i know the people that really read into this thing are the people i care about most, but i don't really think i need to, you know. bye to everyone,
nora

random...

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 19:12:27 GMT

so im not sure anyone will appreciate this just as much as susanna and i did, but because the new harry potter book is coming out susanna is re-reading all the others and she just got to the third and she opened the cover to see....

i am such an artist...and want to be jewish hardcore..?

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 22:02:36 GMT

one exam left.
oh the world.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 16:31:12 GMT

first of all happy birthday jon! congrats on getting older and wiser? hah, but yea, you know. i hope you have a great birthday/are celebrated all day.

on a slightly different note
i went to B&H yesterday and bought a new

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 02:34:33 GMT

i spent the evening celebrating

started off the day by baking her some cupcakes....

found some more money then we knew what to do with?

played some intense neopets games with ben

had an overall good time?

yeah

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 21:14:01 GMT

the courtyard is coming together!

Later...
im at my dads office, we went out to dinner and they were having a drive in movie? at the ice rink which was kind of overwhelming and loud but thats ok. the cold front has definatly hit, its not even that bad, just in comparison to last week. im looking at the holiday schedule for united states offices...they only have 9 holidays a year.
at dinner dad gave me a long talk about life the universe...and everything basically. i dont know, a lot about law school and doing that vs. not doing that. everytime i think about life and everything i feel so so small. oy. im sleepy/am not sure im making sense.
alanis morisette is giving an acoustic jaggid little pill concert across the street right now..

The 4 immeasurables

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 00:24:36 GMT

i think im sick with something, because i havn't been eating regularly/everything just seems incredably unappealing, so i bought ginger ale which helped a bit.
i had two finals today and a presentation. surprisingly enough my finals this year have gone better then ever before, and hopefully itll be the same with chem, but i have no drive to study. i got home from school around 130ish and just slept. mom dad and susanna called and woke me up three different times which was frustraiting and i was having this halarious dream with ice cream, and yea its too hot out. mom said a cold front was coming our way. i laughed.
oh this really is bad. the plan was not to procrastinate but instead here i am.
now that schools (almost) out ive stolen a lot of chalk. i think tomorrow afternoon ill do some sidewalk art..or maybe ill wait for the cold front?

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 10:22:27 GMT

susanna and winston went to prom

i must say, they do look cute, and winston in a tux...ohh what a kid.
edit:
also, the contrast of skin color between the two of them and all the kids in the background is funny. word to the pale?

on another subject...it seems like summer so far has meant ugly green nails and frizzy hair..which kinda just make me laugh...

mmm...summer in the city, how awful......
Hot town, summer in the city
Back of my neck getting dirty and gritty
Been down, isn't it a pity
Doesn't seem to be a shadow in the city
mm..the lovin' spoonful. good times.

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 00:56:06 GMT

being pale sucks....
i got a burn today despite all my efforts to leave the tanning scene.

this little girl breaks furniture/this little girl breaks laws

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 01:04:02 GMT

i realized today just how happy i am to really never have spent the summer in new york...or that i can remember, and i really don't ever plan on doing it. it is just so gross and its too full and everything makes you so head-ace prone. i feel like there would be nothing to do. today was interesting...i had to sing some things, which for me is never a good thing, but that was that...and singing for mr orna, well hes insane/made it a lot more comfortable some how which was nice. i hung out with maeve and alex in the park/at coldstone. it was really nice to bewith them but this weather is just too bad. we were all talking about the weather and realized we were just bashing the city and yeh, i dont know im always questioning if im really happy living here. but thats another story.
i saw the alice in wonderland statue for the first time today/and the toy boat pond...i think that really was the highlight of my day, i wanted to jump in the pond despite its looking pretty gross and leafy.
i want to run........

simple in the moonlight

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 23:27:39 GMT

my day consisted of...
going to school and doing nothing at all...as usual
coming home and talking to jon who never fails to remind me that he doesn't have school and i do..in a good way?...yea, no.
realizing that today was moes last day of school
then going out because doing nothing in school means you have no work to do at home but its too damn hot to move so i ended up buying bubbles, silly puddy, stickers, glow in the dark stars, and some pop rocks for olga.
i met susanna and we bought me some cuban dinner which is going to be good and i dont want it to get cold so im going to go...
winstons coming this weekend. susannas going to prom this weekend. oh shes so old.
my mom just asked me if i wanted to sleep in the front room until i go to camp because of the air conditioner. i dont know, i think i like my room more, despite the grossness/heat.
right, well. dinner.

trust

Sun, 29 May 2005 11:53:17 GMT

this weekend has been really nice so far. school friday was kind of annoying/stressful but i went up to moes and it was warm out...good combination. anyway, we went to see gandalf murphy and i was very impressed. they are really quite good and make the environment so comfortable to be in, it was just a lot of fun. we didnt get back till like 1ish and slept till 11 which is pretty much unheard of in my life, but hey. ate breakfast hung out a bit and went for a really nice walk. it made me rethink my opinion of living outside thecity a lot. in a good way, i dont know, it was just really nice and it smelled so fresh.
i got home around 6ish and once susanna and dad were all ready we went to meet mom and our guest at this turkish place on 100th street which was so good. i was impressed, and it was reallly big to my surpise. it was nice.
on the walk home we rented 4 movies which im so excited to see...i got trust, which is an ani concert from washington which i watched last night and shes just so good. catch me if you can, five people you meet in heaven, and henry V which my dad and i are going to watch and its going to be greatt.
so it was an eventful evening. today im going shopping with susanna/mom for a few things which should be good and seeing maeve and working like no other.
im excited for school to end.
LATER:
im home again. susanna mom visitor whose name i could write if i knew how to spell it and i went shopping to day. it was good, i got a few things and i like them which is a plus. max came for dinner and later susanna and him are going to some jazz club which sounded kinda fun but i think im going to see lucy maybe and watch catch me if you can. plus i should do work.
tomorrow means bike riding. its going to be so so nice.
ive missed nice weather.
LATER again:
the wedding is off!! oh i knew my cousin had some sense.

bitches?? oooh britches.

Sun, 22 May 2005 15:01:09 GMT

do you dream in color?
..let me know.

these past few hours have been interesting. last night was my chorus concert. all the kids were supposed to meet at school at 630 to warm up and then we were going to walk to the curch where all the parents would be and the should would start at 8. so we warm up and are about to go whenit begins pouring. and by pouring imean hardcore all i want to do is dance in the rain and there was lightning and thunder and wow. but of course the dress code for this is white top and black bottoms...and it was warm so no one had coats, so we were stuck in school...which i just found halarious. so we waited for a half hour or so and our conductor got fed up and was like GO GO GO (conductor also being football coach) and so 300+ kids running through the rain to church to do a show. it was great. and when we got there, pretty much soaked the show started. it was actually pretty fun in the end. afterwards dad and i took the train home and decided to get falafel at 12...cause i hadn't had dinner and well, its falafel. what a satisfying meal it was. and we walked home in the rain and then watched csi and other shows like that for a while/ a little bit of drumline cause that was on this morning and it was good. i woke up at 830ish cause of the sun and we went out to breakfast. i really enjoy hanging out with my dad one-on-one. hes good at putting things into perspective for me. well we talked about a lot of things, and then he brought up college stuff for the first time which was kinda..eh..but i guess needed to be said which was ok. and then we bought fruit and soo much of it. im going to make an intense friut salad this evening for when susanna and mom come home and itll be great.
alright, im off to clean/work

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yeh. haircuts..i dont know why i put that there but its going to be different, and good of course. right, i dont know ill stop now.

dont ask why

Tue, 17 May 2005 23:30:09 GMT

i came home this afternoon and someone had cut out this comic and put it on my desk....

and speaking of small things that clutter up my room that i dont really need...but love anyway, i picked this up on my way home..

oh construction..but i figured it was there, why not?

having a snack.

Mon, 16 May 2005 22:07:15 GMT

so its that time of year, and theres about a five block radius around columbia that will be echoing of pomp and circumstance all week. i was just up there for my tutor, and it was just so nice. the campus is covered in seats and everyone walking around in their caps and growns showing their parents around. i love being on that campus, just everything about it, i dont know its definatly an escape from the city for me. i like knowing that its so close.
today was pretty good. i think this week should be a good one. or i figure if i have that outlook i can make it good. school was, fine, one kid in my health class got really sick and i felt bad for him, and my english teacher started sobbing in class and everyone was trying to cheer her up which was nice.
ive got a bit of work to do, but its all good. this evening i have to interview my mom on what she gave up to have me. im hoping for crazy stories about her past, but well see what i get.

week. in short

Sun, 15 May 2005 17:07:35 GMT

this has been an awfully long week. not perticularly good or bad, just sort of blah..
friday after school i went to stuy to go to susannas chorus concert and laid in the grass waiting to meet my mom for a while. it was nice, and she came and we went and i was impressed. after that dad and i went to jerusalem..(hole in the wall falafel place) which, as always was amazinng and then we rented forest gump and the last waltz. we got home and i fell right asleep. i woke up saturday and watched forest gump, i love that movie. and then got ready for the chorus concert, and that ended up taking two hours more then in should have which was incredably frustraiting but eventually mom and i got home and we watched the last waltz together and danced a bit and talked about how sad it was and yeah it was good.
today was the aids walk. i woke up really early and called maeve who said she wasn't going which was kinda sad so i went and it was good and its still going on, but i think i started kinda early/finished early. but i love that walk. plus lots of good free food. so now..i think im going to work on my health magazine. because it would be so satisfying to finish that.

....tuesday...

Tue, 10 May 2005 21:50:50 GMT

today was a big mix of good and bad...
we got our report cards, and im kind of disappointed, but i can pull it all together i think, and i will which is good. alright...this is the amazing news for some and the sad news for me...
the rolling stones played outside laguardia today. everyone saw it cause it was at lunch but oh i decided to go to school in brooklyn. they played start me up and brown sugar. i dont even know, when i heard i was sort of just in a not knowing what to do with myself state. but its ok. cause they're touring..
and then! ninth period i had my oral exam for the regents and it went well. ooh man that was the biggest relief. the rest of school today was kind of pointless, but thats ok. i managed to make a fool of myself in english..and yea that was....ok. alright, work.

hand

Sun, 08 May 2005 15:46:06 GMT

i love susannas art....

bell x1 makes me smile

Sat, 07 May 2005 12:14:45 GMT

mmmm its 8:00 am and i was just woken up by the awful loud doorbell. the men are here putting in the airconditioners. which i guess is exciting for those of us in the family who get an air conditioner. me not being one of them. oh well. yesterday was my first day back in school, and what an awful day it was. my major is tla and im in girls chamber!! which was overly exciting and i think ill just block out all the bad stuff from yesterday with that because well yea, that was so nice. well i came home after school to type up this project for someone who asked me for it and i was planning on going back out but i still felt pretty shitt and literally collapsed at 6 and did not feel motivated to move until 4 this morning. which i would normally say is a bad time to feel motivated to move because not too much is going on, but i gave mr. brown a call and that was nice. today is his show! im pretty excited for him and i wish to extreme extents that moe and i could crash it. in a good way of course. but yea. i feel like i have a sudden burst of energy and im not sure how i feel about it, OH im thinking i may get my ears pierced today...need to not forget about that, plus i need to see maeve ada lucy and nelly. plus work and there was something else. but ill figure out all of that. im thinking im going to talk to my parents about going out for breakfast.
alright, im thinking ill go back to sleep for a bit and then figure out everything...

'Cos we'd be stuck in this place
For an age or two
I hope the wind changes
And the vacuum in space will draw me to you
I hope the wind changes

I'm not over you, can I get back under

ooh. that makes me smile.

you read in reverse

Wed, 04 May 2005 19:44:18 GMT

so school was a no-go. i got up and got ready and things sort of crashed from there, and i fell asleep for 5 hours and when i woke up i found my dad asleep in his bed and was wholly confused. but thats ok. i just finished calling all over school to try and figure out what my major is but the program office is closed cause they suck and yeh, i have to wait.
today is being spent on writing papers and sleeping and seeing moe for the first time in an incredably long time. plus talking tomy wonderful sick buddy monica without whom sick would just not be as fun. mm yes i enjoy that girl. alright.

Mon, 02 May 2005 17:13:44 GMT

im going to the doctor in a bit. i feel gross, im going to drop off film aswell.

"i hope you can focus on the future...and how amazing you can make it. i sound so corny i know but i dont know how else to say it. it is all corny. but like its beautiful. hah...i dont know. just knowing that you will have complete control over what you do, as long as you allow yourself and dont allow things other people tell you and money to interfere, you can do anything. and even if you arent happy now, you will be. because your an amazing person who knows happiness cant be bought or whatever. and i hope all of this helps or maybe gives you hope if ur lacking it. i love you so much and hate to hear you cry. so cheer up mate, life can only go uphill from here."

that means so much to me, so thank you. i hope you dont mind my putting it there, but it doesnt only apply to me, it applies to everyone i think. there is so much to look foward to, even though i know i havn't yet completly realized it.

flipflops and tanktops

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 10:09:22 GMT

waking up with your window open and having it not be freezing in your room is so exciting! spring in new york is amazing, i love it so much. you cant not smile walking down the street. with the flowers and the goodish smells and everyone in shorts skirts and flip flops. school work sucks. i still havnt been to the meadows and i miss it so much.
mmm todoay is 420. which will make school so much more entertaining.
oh, we have guests. people ive known forever but i didnt hae time to do more then say hello yesterday. which was too bad but they'll be here for a while so its all ok.
this time of day is so nice.

gardening and guys and dolls

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 03:29:48 GMT

today was a long day, pretty intense. i had a lot of things on my mind which was not so great for everything i was doing, but overall the day was a success for what needed to be done. photobucket has photos..